Today went Dental to tigten my braces, dammz, clinic forgot to make appointment with dr... lan lan~ went off to HMV... die die want to find my song... no luck~ bought some other CDs...

then went off to Kino~ as usual, when i get there, i go gaga over the range of books they have~ i moved from sections to sections, from Psychology to Sciology, Literature and Law~ spent a good 2 hours plus there... total damage $190

all else was good, only thing missing was someone to hold my hand~

got home at around 2++...

feel so tired, but couldn't sleep~

saw jun online...

thought it was joven~ only to know it is jun~

chat with him for awhile...

guess we are both trying to adjust to things around us... yet some part of us just still very unwilling to let go~

deal made... fri after class i'll go over to his place~

i couldn't care less~ i need him... i really need him...

my eyes are swollen from crying... i break down into episodes and i want to kill myself~ then i wake up with night terrors of being beaten and abused~

if this goes on, i might just get hospitalized~

its just a matter of time i lost the line and cross it~

makes me wonder... who will reach the finishing line first~

i dunno~

i'm starring at my medicines now~

time for the psycho to take her meds