let the pic do the talking/.....







muack i love u~

sly ass~

sometimes i really miss those innocent dayz with hubby~ those dayz when there is nothing to worry about... don't have to worry about money, don't have to worry about future~ just enjoy each other's company

things have gotten different ever since dunno when~

maybe time really changed both of us... apparently we have both been walking into different directions, and the only thing that is holding us back and together is the very fact that we love each other.

Thursday, maybe hubby can book out~ honestly, i miss him a lot...

but i'm so busy with my studies~ catching up is tiring enough~ still got assignment questions to do.

hopefully i can spend enough time with hubby this weekend

coz need to find somethign for the comapny, i am allowed to get
back home for the night. man... nothing feels like home.

last night tempt that ger over web cam. she went gah gah...
hmmm... i still got sex appeal...

just abit wasted that we unable to meet up. but wat ever...
this week end comming. can rest and do wat ever i wan....

k la.. going here early to fnid if its in my bunk?
jun had a good night. bye~ call u when free...

happy that today can finally see hubby~

we were still bitching abt the fight... still wanna "fight" and say who is in the wrong, but we did it in a joking manner... lolz

met up at AMK, went to Marina Square... wanted to eat Carls Junior but hubby say he still full full~ then i wanted to go CoffeClub to sit and slack, then hubby drag me to PanPacific's lobby lounge~ sit there, slack and he ordered this High Tea snack thingy~ me no sweet toothy, so i only drink tea and do my work.

hubby ass apparently got itchy after sitting there for 2 hours... wrap up my work and we went to walk around. Had "dinner" at the food court, then went to action city and i bought 4 head cushions for my car... lolz, hubby is SO NOT INTO PINK! but i don't care~ it is MY CAR!!!

we went by Esplanade and stroll... ******* concerts.... think more of it like noise polution~ finally the "show" ended, we sat by the usual place and chat~ hubby taught me how to tie nice shoe lace... sweet~

now both of us headache on how to deal with his mum coz she first not happy that we broke up, feel that we ain't serious abt each other... then now we patch up, she also not very pleased, coz all these while, she feels that hubby have been "giving in" to me...~ sianz...

heck la... one thing at a time...

drove hubby back to his camp at Maju for the first time... Weeeee....

things are so sweet when we are back to normal~ lolz

we both promised each other that no matter how bad the arguement is~ we will NOT use break-up as a threat or the way out... wearing our wedding bands... it is a promise that we'll work things out no matter what.

dunno when can see him again...

naughty pussy singing again~ sigh~

k la, enough rubbish~ time to sleep le

love u~ always and forever!

Things have somehow got back to normal~

i have to pray hard that it stays this way...

but somehow i feel that there are still hidden currents which we both are avoiding... is it abt me not willing to tell ppl that i'm attched or is it the amulet that hubby insist on wanting to chant?

honestly, i still believe that all these "titles" are just labels... maybe i should start to "change" and make hubby feels more secure...

dunno leh~ hmmmppppp.....

hubby on guard duty at Maju... ger home studying... pulling hair coz the freaking assignment is so hard to do~ sob sob...

currently, we are both thinking of moving over to the states... i'm hoping to secure a job there since all i'd studied are all in American context... if i can secure a job over there, it means it just take time to bring hubby over.

i hope we can move to a place with slower pace, both of us can start afresh without all the ppl starring at us, hoping to see what will happen... judging us~

i hate that...

anywayz...

hubby and me meeting up later at 3pm...

need to go shower up liaoz~

love u lots hubby~

The First Post

Hubby~

i'm sorry to have deleted all our blogs~ the reason is~ i really want to start all over again with you.

The past will always remain in our hearts, and we shall only remember the happy ones.
No more bitching about the past, no more raking up the past and attack one another... we should love each other, honour each other and learn to respect and give each other freedom...

all our problems, are mainly due to our lack of faith and insecurities from each other. In the long run, all these will not work~ and soon enough, we'll be back to square one and we'll be in a fix again.

if our love is as strong as what you claim~ or what we both want it to be, then we will have to to learn to be strong and have faith in it. Faith is something we cannot see, we cannot touch and we can only use "feelings" to maintain it.

we had come a long way~ really a long way...

two years might seem short for a lot of ppl~ but to me, it is one of the LONGEST relationship i ever had... one that i really put in my heart and soul to love, feel and honour.

let's not compare who have done what for each other...

we had both given in our best just that it is "defined" by what we think is the best for each other, and along the way, we neglected how the other party would feel.

admit it, we were both stupid and childish~

things are only gonna get worse in the long run~ especially my family have NEVER once tried to accept the fact that we are togther... that's why recognition and understanding from your family is very important to me. You tend to hide details and faults.... thus, there and then ur mum will have certain misunderstandings about me. Which will then hurt me and make me think twice about being committed to you. Coz i too, won't feel secure~

There is so much for me to tell you~

if we decide that we really want to be together... there will be more rough times to come... and each time, we will both feel like giving up~

hope this time round, we both will grow and learn together... forget about all the "i(s)" and start with "us"...

i love you, always and forever~