The First Post

Hubby~

i'm sorry to have deleted all our blogs~ the reason is~ i really want to start all over again with you.

The past will always remain in our hearts, and we shall only remember the happy ones.
No more bitching about the past, no more raking up the past and attack one another... we should love each other, honour each other and learn to respect and give each other freedom...

all our problems, are mainly due to our lack of faith and insecurities from each other. In the long run, all these will not work~ and soon enough, we'll be back to square one and we'll be in a fix again.

if our love is as strong as what you claim~ or what we both want it to be, then we will have to to learn to be strong and have faith in it. Faith is something we cannot see, we cannot touch and we can only use "feelings" to maintain it.

we had come a long way~ really a long way...

two years might seem short for a lot of ppl~ but to me, it is one of the LONGEST relationship i ever had... one that i really put in my heart and soul to love, feel and honour.

let's not compare who have done what for each other...

we had both given in our best just that it is "defined" by what we think is the best for each other, and along the way, we neglected how the other party would feel.

admit it, we were both stupid and childish~

things are only gonna get worse in the long run~ especially my family have NEVER once tried to accept the fact that we are togther... that's why recognition and understanding from your family is very important to me. You tend to hide details and faults.... thus, there and then ur mum will have certain misunderstandings about me. Which will then hurt me and make me think twice about being committed to you. Coz i too, won't feel secure~

There is so much for me to tell you~

if we decide that we really want to be together... there will be more rough times to come... and each time, we will both feel like giving up~

hope this time round, we both will grow and learn together... forget about all the "i(s)" and start with "us"...

i love you, always and forever~