start from yesterday...

wake up rather early for 8.30 appointment cmpb.

she ask mi how am i. so i tell her no good, having issue with gf
so she gave me 2 choice. to talk about my past or to talk about gf.

we spent an hr talking. conclude with, what i can give and
what i wan end of the day.

guess most of the thing are in our brain. just that need people
to tidy up. and filter those not so important thing.

she end with"get some people to talk to..."

that is so gerlind lo.

ger will only b free at 2 so i went ikea for meat ball. 10balls, soup and
coffee. their combo meal. after that walk walk around. saw a com chair.
planning to buy it. $139. after that was still early, went to starbuck
for ice tea. rather special taste. not bad not bad~ ger crave for beef noodles.
went bugis and go peace ctr for spect. finally to twilight and to kino to buy
some books and call it a day.

thru out the day ger is there to listen to me and not like pricky. happy
about it but its just way too friendly. hah`.

ger having headach and hand pain. still kiv dr vanga. ger pain pain`

was very very excited to see ger.
wake up around 7++, do my stuff and showered up
changed and wait for my storeman to book in so i can book out.
my top agenda is to meet ger. miss her alot miss her real lot.

reach home around 10++ expect ger to reach home at afternoon
coz she told mi she will meet me around 4. help ma in doing spring cleaning.

new yr mood le~ saw ger online at 2++. she was cold. as usual. ever since us trip donno
what happen to her. keep distance from mi. ger unable to conform time. i wait. and wait. ask her if wan to cancel meeting. she agreeded. sucky feeling come again. she had rejected to meet me ONCE AGAIN. was feeling damn angry and pissed. but i know the more i fight back, the more she don wan to meet me. feeling damn sucky. 3++ she told mi we can meet up. so see her at amk at 5 for movie and dinner. quickly change and rush down. don wan to b late.

5pm got her msg, "meet at the store". waht store? why chnage here and there. she playing me? alot of question just pop up. she don wan to pick up phone. don wan to reply. kana tua? was rather pisesed. finally msg recived. 'levise" rush down and see what is happpening. so she wan to alter her jeans. took a deep breathe and be good. chat and chat. don dare to touch her. later she scold. i wan her kiss her hug. but chill.. se already told mi she don wan to b touched.

movie started. and i ahve really no idea where to go. keep thinkin, ger keep yarwning...suggest to get a room so we can chat.

had prata and got a room. ger is like more engross with tv loh... she allow mi to touch her, but no kissing. i try hugging, and touching around. still don get the funny feeling off. guess i gotger's weak spot, we turn naughty naughty.....

after that, i can feel a huge different in me. i feel more cool and more rational.

die le, i can;t live without sex? i'm using ger for sex? or is it that she finally kissed me and discredit the mike issue. feel damn bad... need to tell councellor tomorro. really not healthy.

last night was a hell of a screw~ wait for ger at airport at 12. walk around to see for danger people, but end of day meet amy. initially was rather caution of her. but as we chat, feel that both of us have a common goal, for gerlind to b happy. but sadly both did the wrong way and is equally screwed. seriously its nice chatting with her. better than what i expected after the kelvin thing. but still need to becareful on what i say la`

ger reached at 3++ she was angry that i came. she was cold to me. keep talking to amy. was too tired to have some solo time with me. i am rather disappointed. as i have been waiting for this faithful day for so so damn freakin long.


sort of qurral abit...

but fact is fact, no way to push around. i have to book in today and will only be able to see her this thurs. feel damn miserable but, what to do...

cheer up....

i have to....

i need to...

i think you are equally screwed. i have nothign to give but to remain good hope that is what u need. i'll be there no matter what. promiss

LOVE YOU, forever and always... muack`

where u are.... tot u should b here by now. its 2. guess ur comming back tomorro 4pm sg time.

arg... this is so killing me~.... call mi when u see this.

241208 now its 12.53pm... still in camp waiting for people to setle my store, then i can go home.
sigh... how are u? missing u hope to hear from u... see ya~

thank you sugar for blogging...

i know it hasn't been easy for you ever since you got into Maju... i know that place sucks~ and till today, ur vocation is still messed up... just hang in there and take it as a passing phase... just couple of months to go before you ORD... then u can kiss that hell goodbye.

it is 2.30am here.... we are about to go out to the malls, shopping and stuff~ lind isn't feeling too well, so am i... i'm like having this migraine tat just won't go away no matter what. i took all the pills and stuff, but it just won't go away~

i hope i can find something nice for you here~ we'll see...

blog later~

muacks!

from 6 till now i am trying to fix up my blog... but guess all my computer vibe is gone...
i no longer know how to make a blog any more....
anyway went thru this song. felt its nice...


frank gor.. never fail`

its 8++ but i am so relucten to return camp. sianz.... have to do so coz i have no choice...

thats life...

just wan to let u know that i miss u . but i don wish my missing will turn into pressure and make ur trip unhappy. so i try to forcus other thing. when ur back` i make sure i stick u like glue... u die...

jun is happy with his new hp. can take photo and listen to mp3. but bring to camp is abit troublesome. sigh... army sux to core... its cold down here. making my mood damn lousy.

life stil goes on...

to day a simple day for mi just eat sleep and rot...

k la... jun go prepare le.. bye~ muack` have a good day...
i pray to ti gong nice weather at urside la... or maybe u can try xiao hu zi.
maybe reception is better over there.... cia~