was very very excited to see ger.
wake up around 7++, do my stuff and showered up
changed and wait for my storeman to book in so i can book out.
my top agenda is to meet ger. miss her alot miss her real lot.

reach home around 10++ expect ger to reach home at afternoon
coz she told mi she will meet me around 4. help ma in doing spring cleaning.

new yr mood le~ saw ger online at 2++. she was cold. as usual. ever since us trip donno
what happen to her. keep distance from mi. ger unable to conform time. i wait. and wait. ask her if wan to cancel meeting. she agreeded. sucky feeling come again. she had rejected to meet me ONCE AGAIN. was feeling damn angry and pissed. but i know the more i fight back, the more she don wan to meet me. feeling damn sucky. 3++ she told mi we can meet up. so see her at amk at 5 for movie and dinner. quickly change and rush down. don wan to b late.

5pm got her msg, "meet at the store". waht store? why chnage here and there. she playing me? alot of question just pop up. she don wan to pick up phone. don wan to reply. kana tua? was rather pisesed. finally msg recived. 'levise" rush down and see what is happpening. so she wan to alter her jeans. took a deep breathe and be good. chat and chat. don dare to touch her. later she scold. i wan her kiss her hug. but chill.. se already told mi she don wan to b touched.

movie started. and i ahve really no idea where to go. keep thinkin, ger keep yarwning...suggest to get a room so we can chat.

had prata and got a room. ger is like more engross with tv loh... she allow mi to touch her, but no kissing. i try hugging, and touching around. still don get the funny feeling off. guess i gotger's weak spot, we turn naughty naughty.....

after that, i can feel a huge different in me. i feel more cool and more rational.

die le, i can;t live without sex? i'm using ger for sex? or is it that she finally kissed me and discredit the mike issue. feel damn bad... need to tell councellor tomorro. really not healthy.