it hurt yes it does hurt.

but we cannot keep hurtin lke this for the next 2 yrs.
sooner or later we will crash. i promiss you i'll take care of my
self. eat well, sleep well and don do foolish thing.

this week will be a tough week. the first of the bitter 2 yrs.
remember we need to keep our self tip top condition so that we will still b there. we cannot affort to crash. u give me back my wing and so do i. ur allow to do anything u wan just keep urself safe. pls don hold back coz once you do you will not move on. we're adult. we need to grow. there may be passer by in our life cling on them if u have to. no man live alone. fling with them if u have to. i tell u honestly, i will. tell me selfish but what i looking is to keep myself tip top for the 2 yrs to come. we do not have other choice. sorry.

u noe me, i'll adapt to anything. its only matter of time.


i love u. really do. but i cannot affort to cry. i still have my duty. i cannot let them see m weak side. but i'll fix my self over the week end promiss to be good